I don't have anything clever or witty to say about New Year's resolutions, only that they are fun to think of and hard to keep, and two years ago was my first year keeping them (admittedly, I had two, and they were a pretty low bar: go to the dentist and open a retirement account). So what the heck, I'm giving it another go. Here are my resolutions for 2015:
Go to the gym at least 4 times a week: This is not your standard lose weight resolution! (I did go the doctor yesterday and get weighed and it was the highest I've ever weighed and my heart briefly stopped and sank to the pit of my stomach, but it is back in its place now, thanks). I've beat myself up about my weight before, and working out to get thin never puts me in a happy place - instead of happy post-workout endorphins, I'm left miserable because after all that effort I'm still not where I want to be. When I run to lose weight instead of for the sheer joy of it, I hit a wall and can't break through and it's yucky.
But I've also realized that not moving doesn't help either, and I feel and think and am my best when I'm sweating it out more days than not. Exercising wipes out the cobwebs and helps me find focus and clarity, and when I feel physically strong I feel mentally strong, so I'm making the commitment.
Save money every month: I've finally tackled my credit card debt (for now?), so my new goal is to sock something away at the end of every month. There is no reason for me to be living paycheck to paycheck. I've made this resolution before and forgotten it when that must-have pair of boots or shiny new something crossed my path, but this is the year it's going to happen.
Turn off the electronics and unplug: For at least half an hour before I go to bed. Instead of scrolling through blog after blog (or, really, playing endless mind-numbing games on my cell phone), I'm reading an actual book (right now: Pale Fire by Nabokov, You Shall Know Our Velocity! by Eggers, and Yes Please by Poehler), journaling, sketching, or talking to J. In lieu of getting to that next level in Candy Crush, I'm carving out time for enriching, calming, creative and restorative activities which can only be good for me.
A Couple Extra Thoughts:
I have to recommend Yes Please so, so much. I'm only just a little of the way through it, and I am not devouring it - I'm savoring it, hoping to stretch it out and keep it around because it is so very good. There is a chapter on what Amy calls her "demon" - the voice inside that says you're not good enough, you're not pretty or smart or thin enough, and nobody loves you (oh how that resonates! She captures it all so horribly perfectly) - and how she confronts that demon, telling it, "'Hey. Cool it. Amy is my friend. Don't talk about her like that.' Sticking up for ourselves in the same way we would one of our friends is a hard but satisfying thing to do. Sometimes it works." I love that so much, and everything else in here. It is an excellent book and you should read it.
Finally, I want to say thank you (to my readers and friends, to the Internet, to the universe) for this blog. It feels good to write and think and create in a totally different way than I do at work; it inspires me to take more pictures; it gives me an excuse to bake sweets that J otherwise would not want in the house; and it's a chronicle of my journey that I'm grateful to make and to have.
So that's all for now - I'll post about the maple cream pie I made recently soon. And one more time, Happy New Year! What are your resolutions?
New Year print by Byway.